Recently, I had a conversation that went something like this:
Them: “Your content is good, your production quality – not so much.”
Me: “Yeah, but I have to start somewhere.”
Afterwards, in between being a wife, mother and leader, I cried.
I cried because I know. Of course, I know my quality is not up to par. My 1st video was my first attempt at recording and editing a video. Ever. I can see the Oscars from a distance but I still have some ground to cover. 😅
I cried because I don’t believe in “listen to words, not the voice”. I advocate for excellence. I know where I want my work to be. But I’m not there yet.
I cried because God knows I want to show up in His house with bags full of shiny coins. But all I have to offer Him right now are two pennies to rub together.
I cried because starting something new is never easy, constantly messy and full of steep learning curves.
I cried because sometimes what’s meant to be helpful can end up being hurtful. And I’ve had to deal with far too many “sometimes” this year.
In the middle of my tears, I concluded a few things.
I have an amazing husband who supports all the crazy dreams God has put in my heart. ❤️
In between pulling out my hair one strand at a time, I’m actually enjoying this. I’m enjoying learning something new. I may not be very good at it yet. But with every video I’m getting better.
I knew my first videos were going to be borderline terrible. I made peace with that from the get-go so I could give myself permission to start. Permission to create. Permission to learn. Permission to grow.
They may not have much value to most. To me, they’re priceless. Each one represents so many private victories the world knows nothing about.
Because of my not-so-great videos, I actually have a better idea of what I need for what God is positioning me to do. I’d even made a detailed equipment wish list.
And because my God is Jehovah Overdo, shortly after said conversation, I checked off an item from that list. 🥳
Start where you are. With what you have. God does wondrous things with a faithful heart and two coins.
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Mary Kamau 